Curry and Coffee

My wonderful and amazing sister-in-law came to visit me tonight. I live a half hour away from her (and everyone else), so it isn't often that she comes to visit, so it was a wonderful treat. And to make a nice night fabulous, she brought me dinner and coffee! Yummm... Kalid's Kurry from Beyond Bread, and an iced decaf Americano from Starbucks. Delicious.

I was very glad to see her and get to visit with her - we try to visit every week, but it has been a few weeks since we saw eachother last. It was a nice way to top off a very stressful week.

One of the big things that I am trying very hard not to stress about is nursing Liam. My supply has really been dropping over the last few weeks, and it has gotten pretty low. I started taking an herb called fenugreek that will increase my milk supply (and it has), with the peculiar side effect of making me smell like syrup. Huh. I started taking it, but before it had a chance to kick in, I tried to nurse Liam before bedtime, as is our usual routine, and there was NO milk. None. Liam was so frustrated, and I felt so terrible. I have never felt so helpless in my entire life. Luckily, with the fenugreek, things seem to be getting back on track. I was very scared and sad that I may have had to quit nursing before I wanted to - I want to decide when I am done, and not have that decision made for me. I love nursing Liam. I hoped that I would like it, but I did not expect to love it as much as I do. I feel proud to be able to make him grow so big and strong, and I love the closeness and cuddling that come along with it. I love feeling his warm little body on my lap. I love being able to make my sweet boy so happy and calm.

While my sister-in-law and I were visiting, we made plans for her to take Liam's one year photos. It is awfully nice to have a photographer for a sister! She takes amazing photos, and Liam feels comfortable with her, so we don't have to worry about him being upset...It works very well. So August 22nd, Liam will be getting pictures taken. I absolutely can't believe that his birthday could really be coming up. It can't be possible. How could my little baby be growing up so fast??

Unbelievingly,
Jenny