Baby Dreams

Almost as soon as I had had my little boy, people started asking me when I was going to have another. For a long time, my answer was, "Are you fricking nuts? Let me survive this one first." But lately I have found myself thinking about being pregnant with the next baby. What is it about sleeping through the night that make me think about having a newborn?? I have no idea. Well, actually I think that sleeping through the night has improved my mental stability to the point where I am now functioning as a normal person. And I guess a normal person starts thinking about baby numero dos as numero uno closes in on the end of Year One.

Just so we're clear, I am not planning on getting pregnant any time soon. I am not interested in having a young baby during nursing school, so the idea is to wait until after I graduate and get a job before I get knocked up again. Maybe it is just the fact the I know we are waiting, so it is ok to think and dream about - it isn't to the reality stage yet. But I do like thinking about it. What that pregnancy, birth and baby will be like.

And about every month or so, I go through a time of really feeling pregnant. Which is a little freaky, but also a little fun. It makes me wonder, "What if?" And for the first time since the birth of my son, the "what if" doesn't fill me with terror. It's certainly a step in the right direction.

With hope,
Jenny